There have been so many moments over the last few months when I wanted to sit down and write about what was going on in my life. I would open my laptop and open up a word document - then stare at the page with a blank mind. I was in a creative void - sucked in by a job that took up most of my time and swept me into a tornado that stole my work/life balance. I worked 12-14 hour days, traveled whenever my company demanded it and I put my company and my clients needs before my own. I tried my best to balance everything, but I was failing miserably. This lead to many an argument with my sweet Robby and I can’t blame him. He was terribly neglected. My kids felt less of the brunt as I usually traveled when my daughter when was with her dad and with my son at college - it rarely, if ever, impacted him. Although I'm sure the got an earful from the folks at home.
The stress I experienced was overwhelming and I know I needed a change. So, when I got a call for an amazing opportunity with another firm, I couldn’t pass it up. The day I gave my notice, I felt like a noose was lifted from my neck and I could breathe again. Even with a months notice ahead of me, I knew that there was an end to the chaos and I was in a better place. I stopped traveling and hit the gym daily - sometimes twice per day. In one month, I lost 8 lbs!
I started my new job 2 weeks ago and the difference in corporate culture is palatable. It’s refreshing to work with people who seem to genuinely care about each other and have a good time at work. My day starts and ends at reasonable times and I am able to take a lunch break daily. These are simple pleasures - but things that I was not able to do with my old company.
Now that I’m outside, looking in - I can see how repressive and unhealthy that environment was for me. It took too much energy and too much of my focus. Focus that should have been spent on myself and those that are most important in my life. Over the last year and a half - i’ve disconnected from many friends because I simply didn’t have the time to connect with them. Now that I’m in a better place, my hope is that they will welcome me back to the land of the living.
I’m looking forward to this new freedom. I am looking forward to writing more often and sharing my experiences and my insights with you. Most importantly, I’m looking forward to getting back to me - getting back to my mojo - and maybe even stating my Thursday Momma Bee sessions again. Perhaps not weekly - but once in awhile at least.
The best advice I can give here is that if you ever feel like your life is being sucked out of you by someone or something out of your control - evaluate what that person or situation means to you. Consider whether it is worth your time and energy - sometimes it can be. However, if you feel that you’re not getting enough out of it, then perhaps it’s time to look for other options.
Bee Healthy. Bee Happy.